I remember...

                                           I remember
                                           the very same moment       
                                           when I got drowned
                                           in those ocean like eyes
                                           when all my pursuit
                                           came to an end
                                           when I was captivated
                                           with all you possess
                                           you just instilled
                                           a new life within me
                                           I exactly remember
                                           the very same moment...

                                           I vowed to be yours
                                           for all lives
                                           I tried to give it a word
                                           but just  muffled
                                           all I could do
                                           was to feel your being
                                           in my life
                                           for the ages
                                           but how were the vibes around
                                           I  vividly remember
                                           the very same moment
                                         

                                          You  smiled then
                                          and made me numb
                                          how would I tell you
                                          what was going on deep inside of me
                                          you said,
                                          don't get it wrong
                                          it's not possible ever
                                          and you disappeared
                                          I was still there
                                          and thinking
                                          you were gone
                                          leaving everything of me behind
                                          and  I preserved all
                                          for a reason to live
                                          but how it twitched me
                                          I still remember...

another DAY...

                                                 Just now
                                                 I realized somewhere deep inside of me
                                                another DAY has gone
                                                without saying a word to me
                                                I keep on moping around
                                                why does it happen to me...
                                                but as always I never find an answer
                                                and then
                                                leaving me with all
                                                unanswered questions
                                                another DAY has gone...


                                                When you are here
                                                 I feel so content
                                                 even with your silence
                                                 they say its childish
                                                 but I have been finding the purest
                                                 reality in all these
                                                 definitely its going to hurt me
                                                 still I carry on
                                                 nothing really matters at all
                                                 and then
                                                 promising a false glimpse of yours
                                                 another DAY has gone...

                                             
                                                I know I am in dark all the way
                                                not any hope seems to get me out of this
                                                but your dreamy presence
                                                for an instance even
                                                lights up all my surroundings
                                                somewhere it means a lot to me
                                                when you say
                                                see you again
                                                I feel like having another life
                                                and then
                                                proving all my dreams,
                                                merely a dream
                                                another DAY has gone...


                                               You are not going to be mine
                                                this is what my destiny holds
                                                but an unknown feeling keeps
                                                all my hopes alive
                                                I never want to know
                                                that won't be fulfilled
                                                and then
                                                giving me a lovely reason to live again
                                                another DAY has gone...                            

sTilL..!!!

                               You went on...
                                I trailed off..
                                an untold story is still on my lips...
                                still I soar high
                                still I drown deep
                                still I look forward
                                still I feel too far
                                but if anything is left unchanged
                                that is my perennial love
                                and still on...
                                those crazy mornings
                                those restless nights
                                but you were the alone
                                who outshone all
                                still the darkness in my heart
                                still I am falling apart
                                dreams are still ablaze
                                hope are still in haze
                                still I am setting out
                                no matter where it goes to
                                the journey will come to an end
                                and it has to be, perhaps
                                still something twitches deep inside
                                still I am no one...
                                sTilL...                                

every NIGHT when...

                                         Every night when
                                         I try to close my eyes
                                         someone takes me away
                                         in a wonderland kind of
                                         Where everyone has
                                         a different identity
                                         like I have never ever seen before
                                         People were together
                                         not for any worldly desire
                                         but they were completing each other
                                         the sun was shining there
                                         but with a strange grace
                                         winds were blowing there
                                         but with a loving rhythm
                                         birds were chirping there
                                         but with a amazing exuberance
                                         rivers were flowing there
                                         but with a hope to be lost
                                         in the ocean of love
                                         There were
                                         No grudges
                                         No grievances
                                         No jealousy 
                                         No cut throat competition
                                         All it was around
                                         was the LOVE
                                         the sacred LOVE
                                         the unconditional LOVE
                                         without any manipulated definitions
                                         without any self made limitations
                                         Every night
                                         when I try to close my eyes
                                         It does happen to me
                                         and every night
                                         I wish that
                                         the night never comes to an end
                                         because beyond this dream world
                                         everything is a delusion for me
                                         No one has even a moment
                                         to share it with me
                                         It saddens me all the time
                                         But sun has to arise
                                         I have to awake
                                         a brand new morning awaits for me
                                         with some promising hopes
                                         and momentary pleasures
                                         don't know why
                                         but I am indifferent to all
                                         and I know it has to go on
                                         perhaps its called reality
                                         but I love that tiny space of mine
                                         with no boundaries
                                         where someone awaits for me
                                         Every night when
                                         try to close my eyes..!!!
                                         Every night when...

it HURTS..!!!

                                                              When I walk alone
                                                               I feel a pat on my shoulders
                                                               all of a sudden
                                                               I look back stratled
                                                               it's the same who
                                                               I ever dreamed of
                                                               but I see an unknown grief
                                                               in her eyes
                                                               It really hurts...
                                                               

                                                              We just stroll along
                                                               I seem to splutter
                                                               that's why I decide
                                                               better to keep quiet
                                                               she utters
                                                               I am in a trance
                                                               I wish if this
                                                               moment never ends
                                                               but when she has no words
                                                               It really hurts...


                                                               I try to hold her hands
                                                               but I can't find myself
                                                               to dare even
                                                               because she is so immaculate
                                                               but when she starts
                                                               moving away
                                                               It really hurts...


                                                              A part of me always
                                                              expects her to be here
                                                              in fact I find her
                                                              beside me sometimes
                                                              but when I come to know
                                                              it's a pipe dream
                                                              It really hurts...


                                                              I don't know
                                                              what the love is all about
                                                              but I do know
                                                              how does it feel
                                                              to live with some false hopes
                                                              I don't know
                                                              how she could be mine
                                                              but I do know
                                                              I am made for her
                                                              when someone says
                                                              things don't work
                                                              the way you think                                              
                                                              It really hurts...

a RAY OF HOPE..!!!

                                Winds have changed the directions now,
                                even sunshine gives the pain,
                                the things I used to be thoughtful with
                                now threatens me again and again..
                                still if I am alive
                                just because of a ray of hope;

                                I found it a strange place,
                                where I somehow stepped in with grace,
                                paths are innumerable ,
                                but I am lost with just no trace,
                                still if I am standing here
                                just because of a ray of hope;

                                Now even shadow is defying me
                                without any reason,
                                it all seems to me nothing more than
                                a delusion,
                                still if could manage to move on
                                just because of  a ray of hope;

                                Now I am asked to wait,
                                but it is not all about my fate,
                                I just got to step out of this
                                unknown territory's gate,
                                and I will prove myself
                                someday with the same RAY OF HOPE..

it RAINED.....!!!

                                                     

                                          

                                                               A fine day...

                                                        when I was walking down

                                                        the memory lane;

                                                        when you passed by me

                                                        and I got insane

                                                        when with all my losing hopes......

                                                         it RAINED..!!!

                                                         When you were getting

                                                          beyond my reach,

                                                          when I tried so hard

                                                          to call you back,

                                                          when you kept on vanishing

                                                          somewhere in the horizon;

                                                          when with all my faded feelings

                                                          it RAINED..!!!

                                                          When they wanted me to smile,

                                                           I did..

                                                           when they wanted me to speak,

                                                           I did..

                                                           when they wanted me to sing,

                                                           I did it too,

                                                           but with all these pretensions;

                                                           it RAINED..!!!

                                                           They say I am soaked,

                                                           but don't know why...

                                                           I am still craving for

                                                           that bunch of clouds to come.......

                                                           so that I could say again.....

                                                           it RAINED..!!!

                                            

how could I..???

                                                   
                                               It was a road to NOWHERE
                                               still
                                               we began...
                                               and went on
                                               holding hands of one another
                                               with some false hopes
                                               deep in the heart
                                               until a turn is reached
                                               with some new promising vibes
                                               YOU moved on...
                                               but HOW COULD I..???

                                               I looked into your eyes
                                               imploringly,
                                               they rebuffed me
                                               silently,
                                               I was left alone then
                                               YOU called it off
                                               but HOW COULD I..???

                                               How live moments those were
                                               when we were together
                                               you always used to give me a reason
                                               to live,
                                               and I used to crave for the same,
                                               I vividly  remember all that
                                               perhaps YOU forgot
                                               but HOW COULD I..???

                                               All the premonitions started
                                               turning into celebrations,
                                               I myself never thought of repercussions,
                                               I vouched for you
                                               somewhere YOU proved me wrong,
                                               but HOW COULD I..???

                                                A wave of solitude
                                               swept over me,
                                               I just stood still
                                               kept on waiting for a glimpse;
                                               by the passage of time
                                               I was startled to find you
                                               beside me,
                                               you said not to be bothered about that..
                                               YOU did,
                                               but HOW COULD I..???

whenever...!!!

                                                          whenever I climb,
                                                          I  slip down
                                                          but the thing keeps inspiring me
                                                          to  carry on
                                                          is your LOVE
                                                          which is all around;
                                          
                                                      *          *            *                *
            
                                                          whenever I am in need
                                                          I feel so lonely
                                                          but the thing makes me fulfilled
                                                          is your tender care
                                                          so closely;
                                                      *          *            *                *

                                                          whenever I feel blue
                                                          I get helpless for a while
                                                          but the thing makes me blissful
                                                          is your touch
                                                          with your smile;
                                    
                                                       *         *            *            *

                                                         whenever I feel lagging
                                                         I feel low always
                                                         but the thing makes me leading                
                                                         is your saying
                                                         like a sage;

                                                       *          *            *                *
                                            
                                                         whenever I walk alone
                                                         I feel so incomplete
                                                         inside of me
                                                         but the thing makes me complete
                                                         is your invisible shadow
                                                         stands beside me...