that MOMENT..!!!

                                                  Sky grew darker
                                                  winds began to blow harder
                                                  I still didn't have any clue
                                                  It was like bolt from the blue
                                                  Meanwhile she appeared
                                                  almost like a miracle  
                                                  Wish I could hold that MOMENT..
                                                  All I could just mumbled
                                                  was.....
                                                  It was a flawless creature
                                                  and a content face
                                                  with a lightening grace
                                                  hairs like ebony
                                                  breaths were producing a symphony
                                                  smile, like
                                                  anyone wants to die for
                                                  Literally I was frozen
                                                  She wore a smile
                                                  and asked me
                                                  Do you know what love is..??
                                                  I just could say
                                                  " It's a beginning that never ends".
                                                  She asked me again
                                                  Do you love me..??
                                                  I said,
                                                  " I don't know how much is too much".
                                                  She said,
                                                  I can't be yours ever
                                                  I said,
                                                  "I can wait beyond this 'EVER'"
                                                 She said,
                                                 you have got insane.
                                                 I said,
                                                 " who cares about sanity without you"
                                                 SUDDENLY..
                                                 I felt jerked
                                                 woke up and found
                                                 there was NO ONE..
                                                 no cool breeze
                                                 no fleecy clouds
                                                 no chirping of birds
                                                 no dark sky
                                                 they say
                                                 It was merely a DREAM
                                                 I do agree somewhere
                                                 cause every relationship has its own fate
                                                 perhaps mine is it..!!!

I wish...

                                                      I wish YOU were here

                                                      When

                                                      No one was beside me

                                                      was fooled around by destiny

                                                      heart was on the verge of a mutiny 

                                                      I wish YOU were here

                                                      When

                                                       All the fingers were raising

                                                       My lonely shelter was blazing

                                                       nothing was visible for a virtual hazing

                                                       I wish YOU were here

                                                       When

                                                       I had to go a mile

                                                       All  efforts got futile

                                                       I wore a momentary smile

                                                       I wish YOU were here

                                                       When

                                                       I vowed to carry it on

                                                       was indifferent to dusk or dawn

                                                       all the closed ones were gone

                                                       I wish YOU were here

                                                       When

                                                       I was  somewhere left behind

                                                       only you were on my mind

                                                       all bonds got redefined

                                                       I wish YOU were here

                                                      When

                                                      I was counting one minute more

                                                      had wings and could not soar

                                                      craved to say a bit more

                                                      I wish YOU were here

                                                      I wish YOU were here..!!!

YOU 'N' me..!!!

                            

                                A cloudy evening
                                those mild drizzles
                                only YOU 'N' me
                                closer but still apart
                                shadows were moving
                                along the broadening path
                                just leading nowhere
                                in between the
                                symphony of silence
                                I was getting hypnotized
                                for an exotic presence
                                beside me
                                It was none
                                other than YOU 'N' me...
                                your eyes towards an end
                                and poor me,
                                yet weaving the webs of beginning
                                you put in numerous questions
                                but I was supposed for none
                                cause some questions are
                                never been answered
                                you tried to make me awake
                                but I could not realize yet
                                how fragile these dreams are
                                with the opening of eyes
                                everything remains an illusion
                                so what........
                                I do it again and again
                                they say this
                                world is so vast
                                have faith..
                                but I felt nothing 
                                more than YOU 'N' me...
                                now my pen has begun defying me
                                ink has begun fading
                                all it needs is..
                                YOU 'N' me..!!!

should I call it 'CHANGE'...

Sometimes we are full of thoughts still feel out of words,something like that I'm facing right now.So I just thought why shouldn't I try to share this kind of state of mind.
Nowadays lot of things have been taken a new shape around me like, the kind of solitude I felt inside of me now it has been started exposing off and at least I'm aware of it.
So the thing is what I want to ask myself , is this what I should call CHANGE...
If it is so then it's perfectly all right.Because someone has said---
"The only thing that remains constant in life is,change".
It might be a issue for me just because this is the very first time in my life when some happenings have influenced me so comprehensively.Apart from this fact one thing what I conceived ever that some things  in our life never change rather transform into some other form according to the circumstances.What are these things better if you people think about it.
 I firmly believe that life is process of transformations,not changes,
I'm not saying all these because I want to complain or something like that,I'm just trying to throw some light on a dark phase of my life.


One has to move further in one's lives keeping the past aside  because success demands your present and it is not concerned for your past.But it is also true that nostalgia is the thing that everyone can not carry it on.It's a bit painful but the people who possesses this virtue doesn't feel pain rather relishes it.
 I have transformed  myself from a typical introversion into ambiversion  kind  of.But still I find the real myself inside of me somewhere and I would say definitely it is not going to escape from me ever if it happens then I would say it is a change.
what I think that changes separate and transformations connect..
I am not imposing my thoughts to you people rather all your criticisms are heartedly  welcome.
This discussion will be continued...

WHEN I SAW A SMILE.........crying..!!!

                                                              Tears were frozen,
                                                         
                                         so what..?? if it was hell or heaven,
                                
                                             all my senses started flying,
                                            when I saw a smile... CRYING.
                                                  

                                                    I was amazed,
                                         
                                          all the imaginations were caged,
                                                
                                           my hopes were brutally dying, 
                                           when I saw a smile...CRYING..


                                         a killing silence was all around,


                                             time was the only healer 
                                                   for this wound,


                                       my dreamy castles were destroying,
                                        when I saw a smile... CRYING...


                                                    I was in a trance,

                                              only shattered images were 
                                                      at my glance,

                                           every emotion was classifying,
                                           when I saw a smile...CRYING....      


                                           The roads were getting tougher,


                                                    I was there only
                                                      one to suffer,


                                           whole world instructed me
                                              but,I kept on defying,
                                         when I saw a smile...CRYING.....
 

TOWARDS THE ULTIMATE HEALING..!!!

This(TITLE OF POST) is what i kept on pondering about, during past few days...because i happened to go somewhere i found an ultimate truth of LIFE...
What is this..?? Let's try to find it out..
I just believe in simple saying that goes like..

WHAT YOU ARE; NEVER ENDS,WHAT YOU HAVE; DOES...

Incidentally i realized it and i would say anyone can if  he wants.Right from our birth we keep swinging between some losses and gains too definitely and it is our perception which categorizes these losses and gains regarding their worth.What is the best and what is the worst perhaps you are the best to assess. Still i would like to say everything we get out of our life could not be measured  that how much worth it is,SOME THINGS NEVER DEMAND THEIR VALUE.They are beyond these norms. 
When we lose such kind of possessions anyhow,it really makes a big difference,then we need healing.
When we have the cure but wounds are remain same,then we need healing..
When  we start saying to ourselves that circumstances are going against us,then we need healing...
When something is beside us but we are totally numb to feel the presence,then we need healing....
when the remembrances start causing pain inside of us,then we need healing.....
The healing i referred above is the ultimate healing.It takes us far away from all sufferings.To get this healing all we need to do is start believing in ourselves.
How..............????????
I will try to find it out too...

INTO THE REALM OF A FANTASY...

I RUN AFTER A DREAM...

                                did you see me perspiring..??

                                                 perhaps, you didn't.... ever...

every night when,

                            heart quieten my mind,

my eyes get almost blind,

                            i keep sailing upstream,

                                             cause I RUN AFTER A DREAM;

i just can't bring them back,

                                           but they have thrown me out of whack,

 i neglect this world's scream,

                                    

                                           cause I RUN AFTER A DREAM;

feelings find the place to vent up,

                                                  i just become dumb and deaf,

a yawning gap is in between,

                                            

                                           cause I RUN AFTER A DREAM;

 

I'm losing that was never mine,

                                                  still committing this innocent crime,

all i can pursue are my shoulders to lean,

                                                   cause I RUN AFTER A DREAM;

I love to be with virtual reality,

                                                    never ask any other fidelity,

how indifferent it's been,

                                      

                                              cause I RUN AFTER A DREAM..!!!

TRUST........

I was somewhere in the  middle of  definition of TRUST..

So let's flow with the thoughts........
Trust is basically the thing without which we can't imagine even a single moment of our life.Even when we fall asleep in the night but we know that we will get up by the sun rises,it's just because of trust on our conscious.
Anyways we are talking about the relationships here so let's take a turn towards it.In relationships it makes us feel content above so many constraints.This is the trust which makes realize the caring presence of our loved ones all around even when they are apart.
Trust makes the bonds sweet to sweeter always.Let's take a lovely example.
How does a baby recognize her mother..??Why does she sleep peacefully in her mother's arms..??
You may be thinking about trust somewhere in your mind .Yes obviously it is.It is just because she knows that no one can love her so selflessly or without any return except her mother.A mother's womb for a baby is nothing less than a temple,for there is only love.
Enjoying life in such a sweet atmosphere,the baby feels safe in her mother's womb.Because there is someone around her who is taking care of her more than anything.So we learn about trust right from the moment when we are about to set foot on this earth.
If i say that emotions make the bonds and trust gives the strength to it then nothing goes wrong.
Trust is not the thing which is always expected to be reciprocated,if it does,well and good if it's not like that don't lose your heart..it's just a matter of time,trust makes every impossible to possible.But i would say one thing that it possess the guts to open many unlocked doors...


                          to be continued.... 

a mystique word to be defined...

When you happen to be under a tree of falling leaves in an autumn,you probably think for a while...it looks a bit incomplete.These are the leaves which are falling freely today,used to be an integral part of the very same tree ever,but it's a matter of time so that they are touching the ground.But the time does come again when the tree regains it's completeness and starts looking like it used to be.

What did you think..??

Well you carry on...
What i felt, it's just an unseen bond of unconditional love between these leaves and the tree or you can say a longing to live together or you can also say a craving to complement each other selflessly,turned that kind of incompleteness into completeness.
I just simply say it a RELATIONSHIP.
Relationship is a recipe and the ingredients of it may vary based on the taste of individuals accordingly.But some components are mandatory.I'm just going to try to figure it out.
You people may have heard about a word named EMOTION.We are mistaken always when we say it's the word concerns about those who are too weak to make decisions of their life,it may be true but not always.
In fact when we start feeling something transcendentally,at the very same moment a very different kind of stream starts flowing in the ocean of our psyche and out of this flow a strange kind of sense engulfs our mind and heart both,this is what i want to say a little about EMOTIONS.
That's why i wanted to make a point that this is very essential part of any relationship.And i don't think that even a single person exists on this earth, who
doesn't have this precious possession.Perhaps it is the reason which can make a difference that we are living beings.
When we are in any kind of relationship,it is the emotion that keeps guiding us to carry it on in the long run.
If we take a look at any machine we just find, it comprises a lot of components and every part of it has its own responsibility and has a sort of relationship among all as well.Only then they are able to work properly.
now you may be thinking that i said before a while, emotions play a vital role carrying any relationship on.But if we talk about machines we just can't even imagine about some emotional quotient,still they are getting along well then how the emotions are essential...???
Well now let me explain what i can..
They(machine's part) are together just because they need each other until the machine stops working.They are together out of some logic .if some parts don't work as they are supposed to be,they are just replaced by another more efficient one without any hesitation and like this the machine keeps working.The process keeps on going....
but friends..!!FEELINGS are not supposed to be logical,and dangerous is the man who rationalized his emotions.Living beings are together not because of that petty cause of being needy of each other but this togetherness is the demand of the relationship.You can say this relationship does need both and the feelings for everyone are unique they can never be substituted .
And one more thing to say is,the broken hearts can not be mended like machine parts.Thats the difference.
So as we are at the starting of any relationship we remain throughout of it.I do agree with the fact that time changes,priorities changes but feelings stand still and in short they never fade till our last breath count.

Another thing that is TRUST has to be there where relationships exist..
I define it into my words goes like....
When our presumptions for each other start becoming true,then we can say this is the belief towards the one which makes it happen.So this trust we give to someone we love and without being bothered about the consequences.And now it's all your fate ,that how one keeps your TRUST...


to be continued..........